oh lj how i have forsaken you. i still read my friends page a couple of times a week...although it's mostly cute overload and other feeds. i guess twitter has really taken over as my medium of updating...easier to blurt things out i guess.

i'm sitting here alone on sunday morning because everyone is working and my mom is flying to florida because my tia lydia has passed away.

i think it's time to watch the hours on dvd. i've been saving it for a special occasion like this!

but first walk the puppy.

ok so I haven't done a good job of updating this journal at all this year. my life has been very wonderful, rich, and fulfilling strangely enough. my relationship continues to grow with Adam into new and wonderful things. my brother neil is engaged! couples that have formed the bedrock of my life as an adult have broken up. other couples have formed that dazzle me with their shiny amazing love.

I lost a very dear uncle this year and can't help but think of it as a harbinger of things to come. but I'm laying upstairs at my aunts house alone listening to the conversations surrounded by an incredible family and it's nice. okay. I'm ready for 2009.

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my head is going to explode.

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all i wanted was a little rain this weekend! drizzle soooo doesn't count. southern california you are so boring! i have lots of ieps coming up this month. fall is a busy busy busy time.

i just saw the first episode of "Spain...on the Road Again!" starring Gwyneth Paltrow and Mario Batali...weirdest pairing ever! i can't stand him...but i love Gwyneth's very deadpan delivery and tone. also, her Spanish accent is really good!

don't ask me why i made the capitalization choices in the above entry, because i have no idea.

i just got back from what is definitely the most amazing birthday party that's ever been given in my honor. it was like getting one of those amazing birthday parties when you were a kid...with the themed cake made in those big molded pans shaped like batman or whatever character YOU liked and spiky frosting coloring them in. and all the party decor matching... and a batman pinata...filled with the GOOD candy. and goody bags. and all the perfect gifts....and food that you just can't stop eating. but like everything translated to adulthood...where you can appreciate the crazy details and love put into every single thing that was done for you. and the craziest thing is it wasn't even done by family which has that obligation...but by my dear friends audrey and del. and i actually cried with happiness on the way home just smiling realizing how many people love me and care about me.

i'm just over the freaking moon. i will post pictures and more details later. i'm just going to lay in bed smiling with addy (who baked me a cake!!!!! :) till sleep takes me.


!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok so i never was able to get in on the 10-4u personal kristin hersh mix tape thing as it was sold out almost instantly...but i bought 10-4 all from kristin hersh. 63 songs spanning her whole career (tm & solo at least), ahhh that she recorded live to tape to use for 10-4u. i've literally barely started listening to it....and i can already say that it's the most amazing thing EVER. totally worth the $70. The cdr's came in individual paper sleeves and a totally unglamourous track listing printed on like bond paper folded in half and cut...it all barely fit in this tiny little cardboard mailer...it is the most unassuming package that contains some of the craziest shit on earth. it's like a tardis was waiting for me in my mailbox. omg. i just made a doctor who reference completely organically. how exciting.

and a she-wolf after the war acoustic!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the guitar.....

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

wow. so my mom has been playing around a LOT with her new iphone. she could barely work email before. here is what i just got from her. i <3 her so much.

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I just entered information in the epocrates I just love this phone and can use all the programs I can even type very fast I don't know where the period is did you hear about Pechanga they are getting broke I hope they don't close bye love you regards to adam. I finally found the period space x two. Bye bye
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saw the spanish horror movie [rec] as per sk1bt's directions....and holy crap monkeys. it was totally mind numbingly freaky and good. and the....ahhh i won't spoil it. of course they're doing a u.s. remake of it. is it really that hard to read freaking subtitles?

yay for summer! it's 12:46am and i'm like....guess i'll play video games now!

also i started my application for cal state la to go into speech pathology. i do love teaching the special babies...but i'm also starting to feel really ground down by the system. also part of the challenge isn't there...especially being in such a "nice" school in comparison to where i taught before (south bronx 4-eva!). i'm also not digging the same kids for the third year in a row scenario i'm facing next year. though i love them terribly, i know i've just grown too attached and am going to be really sad when they go away to middle school. also...they know a lot of my tricks already. lol i've been teaching 5 years...it's time to take next steps.

anyways clinicians have a modicum more freedom to do their job and less constant, annoying over the shoulder supervision...even though i shouldn't say anything at all because my principal and A.P. are amazing and give me nothing but support in anything i do.

i'd much rather (if i'm actually going to try for one) get a Ph.D. in this area rather than in education. the only problem is that i'm going to have to continue to work (got a family to support...not to mention a consumer electronics habit to maintain) at least through the pre-req phase.....which is going to be roughly 2 years at part time. But oh well...at least i'll be headed into my 30's with a bigger and better goal in mind. it's slow and steady wins the race.

anyways. addy and i keep dancing around the marriage subject. i mean....not the fact that we are going to be together...but the fact of sealing it under state law and before the eyes of our adoring families. i mean it's going to be 6 years this august. it will help my financial aid situation in school as adam has basically 0 income. also when his health benefits run out from ucla next year...he'll be covered by lausd. whatever we'll see. our domestic partnershipping in new york was pretty low profile as evidenced by our official photo - god i wish i was still that skinny. and had that cat :(



and i've always wanted a kitchenaid stand mixer...ahhh material goods. that's the proper kind of motivation for any wedding.

god fucking dammit. piece of shit fuck fuck fuckity fuck.

i just spent like 2 hours playing persona 3 and building up my "charm" and "academics" and dating my pseudo boyfriend on the swim team. and then i fucking got overzealous during a full moon and died without saving.

oh life...

is bigger.

ps. i saw blade runner for the first time in my life tonight. i enjoyed it.